Originally transcribed by Bertha EMMERSON HORNE SANDERS^[1] and her daughter, Rosemary.

Re-typed into digital format with added footnotes by Shirley Smith and Sandra Smith Gwilliam .  Ted Wright ,  Dwayne Crandall  & many others have provided much valuable historical and family data.  Thanks especially to Elreeta Crain Weathers who provided the photocopies of the letters and her website to post these letters and notes.

[Note from Sandra Smith Gwilliam: I have merged many sources into this document.  Some of the notes may not flow smoothly, because I tried to get as much information into this document as possible in a form that a search engine could pick it up easily.  There may be discrepancies as there are in any family research. We welcome your input if you have other information that is pertinent to any of the families in these letters.  Typos and other mistakes could have easily been made.  Many records have conflicting information.  I used the information that seemed to fit the circumstances and facts.  In some instances we have put the information from all of our sources when we couldn’t determine the correct data.]

These letters were written during the Civil War mostly from South Bosque, McLennan County Texas and James Black's duty stations in Galveston & Fort Hebert, Texas, with a few letters from other family members.

Patience CRAIN was born 10 Apr 1842 in Henderson, Rusk County, Texas [2]to Joel Burditt and Sarah Elvina SMITH CRAIN.  She married^[3] James Johnson BLACK in McLennan County, Texas.  They had two children:  Joel David BLACK born 6 Aug 1862 in South Bosque, McLennan County, Texas, and Julia Montgomery BLACK born in 1866 in McLennan County, Texas.  Patience died 24 Jan 1869 and is buried in the Harris Creek Cemetery^[4] in Waco.

James Johnson BLACK was born about 1830^[5] in Alabama to parents^[6] David Simpson BLACK (About 1802[7] North Carolina – 17 Mar 1862, Marshall County, Alabama) and Mary (Polly) DITTO BLACK (About 1804 Tennessee – 19 Mar 1862, Marshall County, Alabama). James Black’s parents were married in Madison County, Alabama 18 Nov. 1825.

James married Patience CRAIN on Sept 11, 1861, in McLennan County, Texas, just 10 days before he enlisted^[8] in the Confederate Army in Waco, McLennan County, Texas Sept. 21, 1861. 

Several years after Patience died, James BLACK married Patience's cousin, Hannah Texana SMITH MILNER^[9].  Texana was born May 1853 in Rusk County, Texas, the daughter of Joseph P. & Minerva Ann HALL SMITH.  They were married May 13, 1874 in Coryell County, Texas by Henry Madison SMITH Sr., Justice of the Peace, Coryell County, Texas.  [Henry M. SMITH was the uncle of both Texana SMITH MILNER and Patience CRAIN.]  (Coryell County Marriage Book D page 5, 13 May 1874.).  Texana died 2 Oct 1919 in Abilene, Taylor, Texas and, according to her obituary^[10], was taken to Sipe Springs, Comanche County, Texas for burial.

Texana SMITH MILNER BLACK had a daughter by a previous marriage to Williamson MILNER.  Tommie MILNER was born about 1869 in Texas. Texana and Williamson were later divorced.   A note by Bertha Emmerson HORNE:  "Mr. John Crow of Henderson remembers Tex Smith and the Milner she married.  Texas Smith and Mr. Milner had a daughter. She lived to be grown, married and had a daughter, but both she and the daughter died when her daughter was a child so they have no descendants."                                       

James & Texana BLACK had either four or five children: Kate BLACK, born 3 Jun 1875, William BLACK born 6 Jan 1879, Mattie BLACK born 26 May 1882 and James Madison BLACK born 20 Dec 1888.   The 1900 Federal Census in Taylor County, Texas^[11], page 24 A, states that Texana had 6 children born to her with 3 alive in 1900 (Mattie, James & Kate were all living.  Tommie MILNER & William BLACK had both died.  We have no record of the child who died.)

James BLACK died 31 March 1888, before his son James Madison BLACK^[12] was born, and is probably buried in Harris Creek Cemetery, Waco, McLennan, Texas where Patience Crain Black is buried, but there is no headstone to confirm the place of burial. 

Texana SMITH BLACK applied for and was granted James Black's Confederate pension [Texas CSA Application: BLACK, Texanna 20860, Taylor County TX, BLACK, James].

James & Patience Crain Black letters Part 3:

Pp 16-17

South Bosque March 1st 1862

My darling Husband;  The reception of your very kind letter on Thursday was quite a surprise for I had looked in vain for one so long I began to think you were sick.  Mollie^[13] has had 5 or 6 from Jim but he mentions your name in none of them. There is a very great excitement here now, as there has been such a heavy call for men.  The men are stiring considerably as they expect a draft they are all anxious now.

This is Saturday evening. All are from home save Ida^[14] and myself.  I wrote to you last Saturday evening.  I think it quite a pleasant task to write to the one who possesses my earthly devotion. 

I could not live if I did not possess your pure heart to love.  I look for you often when I know too well you are not coming though I hope I will not look in vain a great while; but prospects are gloomy now for a speedy meeting.  Write to me if you think you will be called to any other point, though I reckon you know no more than I do.

I have been tolerably well this week.  I have been trying to spin the blues away and have succeeded tolerably well though they will steal upon me at evening when the sun is sinking.  I can see you then so plainly.  I could not know how my heart was bound to yours until you were gone, but I knew it was inseparable. 

I am spinning^[15] you some cotton pants.  We have two new spinning wheels; and only one pair of cotton cards^[16] are lacking now to complete the foggy days.  The mountains are all burning now.  If it was only night it would look very pretty.  The prairies are getting green very fast.  The wheat is looking very fine.

I look at your ambrotype^[17] often and now it looks very like you.  The eyes are rather dim but it has your perfect mouth which I often kiss but it gives me no kiss in return. 

Mollie (MCDANIEL CRAIN)^[18] is thinking Jim (CRAIN) would be at home next month but it has never appeared to me that you would come so soon as that though I hope you will. You ought to write to your mother if you have not written^[19].

I have not been to see Aunt Lizzie^[20] nor do I know when I shall for there is so few of us at home.  Ambrose^[21] (CRAIN) will start to school in Waco in a short time.  Nute^[22] (CRAIN) will either go with him or go back on station.  He is at home now but if Pap^[23] goes to war they will stay at home I expect.

Parson Hudson was here yesterday begging clothing for himself.  He is off a few days for the war.  He got nothing only a little mad.  He just said good evening to Mother^[24] but did not even deign me a nod of his head.

I cannot think what to write but if I could be with you I would never tire of talking to you.  Don't you think I write a great deal of foolishness?  I know you would if you did not know me as well, and you know I write the truth.  Ida said she loved me the best but I must not tell it and when you come home she would tell you she loved you best.  I would like very much for you to be home in July if you could possibly be.

Jimmie take care of your self and health.  O guard your heart for my sake.  I know that eveil [sic] temptations are near you all the time.  Tell Will^[25] to write often.  I want you to write regularly.  When I expect a letter and do not get it I do the most natural thing (cry) though I know the mails are irregular.

Goodbye darling Jimmie.

Patience

Pp 18-19

South Bosque   March 23 1862

Mr. James Black

My Dearest I am once more permitted to write you a few lines thought nothing to cheer only we are all well which is indeed a blessing.  One I hope you are blessed with.  It is a painful task to write you the death of Cale JONES^[26].  He was taken sick at Fayetteville [Washington County, Arkansas] and was moved to Van Buren [Crawford County, Arkansas] where he died after the illness of a few days with the pneumonia.  It is indeed sad news for his parents and friends.

McFall^[27] died very suddenly a few days since.  He was walking along the street and fell dead.  His disease is supposed hemorrhage of the lungs.  His wife has moved on [to] Bosque since Mr. and Mrs. Saunders^[28] have parted.  Mrs. Saunders and all her children are at Mr. Down's; Mr. and Mrs. Smith also.  Now is not there a folly crowd in one little hut?

I expected a letter from you last night, but received none as usual.  I think you have written and if you have not you ought have written.  We look for you all home in two or three weeks, as we have learned you will be disbanded soon to enlist for the war.  The thought of you coming home to me is both painful and pleasing.

It almost breaks my heart to think of you leaving me again.  I, for the first time, wish I were a man.  If I were I could be by your side and share your fate.  The deepest gloom is spread over our country since the news of our Generals^[29] fall.  I have almost began to think the battle is to the strong and not to the just.

Hope is a sweet comforter but I fear it will leave us in despair.  Jimmie my darling there is nothing lasting and true but Heaven and it a home that we can gain without bloodshed.  It has been purchased for us with the purest blood long ago.  It is indeed a solace to know there is a resting place prepared for the faithful.

I have nothing new to tell you.  I only write because I know you want to hear from me and I love to please you.  Mother and I are weaving Uncle Jasper^[30] a blanket.  I can work as much as most anyone.  My right hand has not had its proper feeling for some time; the blood does not seen to circulate freely.  I think it is holding the spinning stick so tight.

Mrs. Stone will open school here in a week or so.  Ida said she would not forget bud Jimmie.  She talks of you more than she does anyone else.  You must bring her a Primmer^[31] when you come.  She and Hannah^[32] ran away yesterday and went to Aunt Dillie's^[33] and she asked them what they came for.  Ida told her for a biscuit.  She gave them one and started them home.  Ambrose^[34] went for them and met them coming.

Pap said tell Uncle Newel^[35] he has given out coming down and his men are joining other companies and the money he received was for Uncle Mat^[36].  Denison was mistaken in the name.  Well dinner is ready I wish you was here to eat it with us.

Give my love to Will and Jim^[37].  Mother and Pap sends their love to you all and say they are anxious to see you.  There is a severe norther blowing for a week past. 

May God bless and keep you my Jimmie.  Your Patience. 

(Letters page 20  )  

Whitesburg, Ala.  Mar 29th 1862

My dear sister;-  Sad, lonely and low-spirited I attempt to address you this morning.  Your very kind letter of Jan 20th has been received long since, and would have been answered ere this had not the condition of the family rendered it impossible.  It is a painful task for me to communicate to you the sad news of the death of both Father[38] and Mother to which I have been a witness since I last wrote to you.  Mother was confined to her room for three months before her death. 

During that time she was never able to turn herself in the bed, without my assistance.  We procured the best of medical aid but all in vain.  Some pronounced her disease Rheumatism, other affection of the spinal marrow.  She died on the 19th of March after enduring three months suffering of the most agonizing pain.  Father was taken sick 11th of March with pneumonia and died on the 17th after a short and painful illness of six days.

I expect to remain on the plantation this year.  Can't you come and stay with me?  I do wish you were here.  I think if you were here the time would not pass so lonely and slowly.  Brother David's wife^[39] and baby are staying with me. 

You stated in your letter that Brother had enlisted his name in defence of his country and would leave for Galveston in a few days.  Has he gone?  I am very anxious him, not having heard from him since you last wrote to me.  War is the talk here; it seems that our country will soon be desolated unless kind providence aids in this trying hour.  The enemy are daily expected at Huntsville a town only sixteen miles distance from here.

There has been more sickness in this county during the past winter than was ever known before.  Our relatives here are all well.  So far as my knowledge extends.  Present my compliments to your Father's family and receive for yourself the most sincere wishes of your sister.

Mollie J. BLACK^[40]

PS  Excuse the brevity of this and I will write more another time. Write soon and often.

(Letters Page 21)

South Bosque

March 30th 1862

Dear Husband   I am seated this cloudy Sabbath morning to answer your letter which I received last evening.  I was not expecting it as I had received two a few days before, you cannot imagine half how much the reception of your letters cheered me, they were dated 10, 18, and 26 inst. 

We were expecting you home soon, but your last letters corrected the false anticipation, I am sorry you will not be at home soon as I thought for, but glad you are not ordered to Tenn. as I understand you were.  I fear Galveston will be very sickly.   

When you do not get letters regularly do not imagine me sick for my health is better than it has been for a long time, every one compliments my health and good looks.  I have more color in my face than you have seen for some time, though some days I am very pale.

I am very sorry your health is not good.  The health of this neighborhood in general is good.  Mrs. Wiley's^[41] children are still chilling though the chills are slight.  It is warm and cloudy rain is badly needed.

Mother is complying with her promise now, she is weaving you and Will some pants, I do wish so much you could come home on my birthday though I shall not set my heart on seeing you, for fear of a disappointment, but you need not think of surprising me by coming.

No my darling I think of you every time old Ring barks and that is at every cow that passes.

Mollie has been here for some weeks past, she is gone with Pap to Uncle Newels.

Aunt Lizzie^[42] said she was coming for me to go and stay some with her but I cannot see how I can leave home.

I dreamed the sweetest dream last night.  I was with you and we were both very happy.  I want to see you so much, though it is not necessary to tell that same old tale so often, though of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh.

Little Patie Jimmie's mate died a few days since.  Mrs. Stone^[43] will open school in the morning.  She is boarding with us.  She has one child a little boy; her husband is gone to Missouri.  I showed your Ambrotype to her, she said it was very handsome.

Frank Childress^[44] is with us now.  She is very anxious to see you.  Uncle Jasper worked old Buck to Waco last week and while there he was fixing something about the buggy tongue and was astride it, when Buck became frightened and ran away dragging Uncle Jasper [SMITH] a considerable distance on head, he is not badly hurt, though his foot is bruised and some of the bones I believe are fractured, the buggy was not broken at all.

Aunt Dillia^[45] wishes to be remembered by you.  She takes Cales^[46] death very hard.  I have not heard from your Father's family[47] since you left. 

Jim Duke ^[48]received a letter from his Father not long since.  I suppose none of them were sick or he would have mentioned it.  I spent last Thursday with Mrs. Wiley and made myself a pair of shoes, they are very nice.  I have written all I know and nothing new either.  It seems that you have been gone twelve months and it is only two.  It will soon be too warm to work much then I will go crazy.  Tell Jim and Will I do not like to be forgotten.  I  (page 22)  want to see them very much.

Before I write to you again, I will try to have a better pen.

Dearest Jimmie I wish you knew how much I love you, but I cannot tell you.  Do not expose yourself to the night air without your coat.  Ida is very pleased with the kisses you send her.  Mother and Mat join in sending love to you all. Take care of yourself until I see you.

God Bless my own /  Mrs. BLACK

Cousin Frank^[49] sends her love to Cousin Jimmie.  Write to me if you have had the measles.  Sing America for me.  P

(Letters Page 23)

Fort Hebert ^[50] [ Texas ]  April 6th 1862

 I again take my pen in hand to write to you.  It has been so long since I saw you that I hardly know what to write; but if I could see you I would never tire talking to you and listening to words from lips so pure, so lovely, and so beloved.  I have dreamed of being at home an in the society of one that is ever present in my bosom, three nights in succession.  It was so much like reality that I could scarcely believe it to be visionary after waking.  I never knew how well I loved you until separated from you; although I knew my love was inseparable.

I have nothing new to write to you; but knowing you would like to hear from me, nothing could give me more pleasure than to please you. 

We have been at this place about ten days.  I like it much better than at Galveston.  I think it will be much healthier here than in the city.  Some of the boys are very much displeased with the move.  They are getting too far from town; but my opinion is the further from town the better for them.

Col. Speight^[51] left here for Millican^[52] with about three hundred men who re-enlisted for the war a few days ago.  As soon as necessary preparations can be made they are to go to Arkansas.  The remainder of the battalion—about two hundred and fifty—are to remain here until further orders.  The purport of those orders no one knows; so may be to stay here, or it may be to march to some other point.

I don't think it necessary to hold these fortifications for if the Yankees wanted to invade Texas they never would land here when there is so many other places that they could land their forces and meet no opposition in landing.  It would be nearly impossible for them to take this fort as it is fortified on all sides. 

The health of our Battallion is not good at present. There are several case of measles in camp, but generally very light.  I have had them this week. They never confined me to my bed but one day.  I am well with the exception of bad cold, which is very common here.  I haven't been entirely clear of a cold since I have been down here, Jim CRAIN^[53] has been sick but is well again.  W. T. McDaniel^[54] has just returned from the hospital.  He looks very bad. 

W. M. CRAIN is well.  Our captain is gone to Houston to-day on business.  J. S. CRAIN talks of trying to get a furlough before the first of May; as there is no furloughs granted except to those who have re-enlisted for the war.  I shall try to come home in May or sooner if possible.  You must not look for me until you see me.  My Darling keep a cheerful heart and cheer those that are around you.  I know your presence will banish sadness in its gloomiest state.

From your letters I see you do not get letters regular from me.  I have written once every week and sometimes twice a week ever since I left home, and I shall continue to do so as long as I have an opportunity of doing so.

Give my best love and kindest wishes to all the family. Give my respects to all enquiring friends. Tell Ida I will bring her a nice present when I come home.

May Angels attend you—Good Bye
                       Your Jimmie
    N. B. direct letters Fort Hebert
            c/o Capt. CRAIN's Company (D) T. V. I.                                                            Jim BLACK

 (page 24) 

[no date on this letter]

Jimmie, I received the letter this evening that you sent by Uncle Matt.  I am pleased to read a line from you at any time.  Mat said she is much obliged for her letter and you are not as mean as she thought for. 

Tell Jim I will write to him in a few days all about the horses, hog, cows, and dogs.  xx Tell Lieutenant CRAIN I think him very lazy indeed I do.  Kiss your name at the end of this and you will kiss me.  I imagine I can see you so plain.  Write to me if you have your whiskers on yet and if you have gained any in weight.

Well I wish I could see you tonight for all the fellows I ever saw you are the dearest though I dream of my sweethearts sometimes yet, but I do not dream of loving them as I do my own darling Jimmie.  My love for you is next to Idolitry. 

Eullie (Wiley?) JONES talks of you often.  He is very anxious to see you.  Jess Ellison's health is improving.  He was to see our Cousin Sue[55] not long since. 

Mat has not heard from her [Joe Riley] for some time.  I think she is getting very anxious though.  Excuse this scribbling Jimmie if you please.  Write soon if you only say you are well, it will be read with much pleasure.  Well good night dearest.  I am going to bed to think and dream of you my love.  Take care of yourself and I will reward you with kisses xxxxxxxxx  Yours with pure devotion  My Jimmie

(Letters Page 25 )

South Bosque

April 6th 1862

Dear Husband

I received a letter for you from Frank King this morning and it is with a sad heart I write you the sad intelligence it brought, the death of both your Parents.  Your Father died on the 17th and your Mother on the 19th of March.  He mentioned no disease nor how long they were ill though a letter from Mr. Duke stated Mothers illness of long duration.

My darling Husband you have the sympathies of your ever loving wife.  It is your bereavement but their eternal gain.  I do indeed mourn with our dear Sister Mollie who is all alone.  Weep not my Jimmie for they have made a happy exit; have left a troubled scene behind them but rejoice that they have lived to see their children honorable men and women.

What more can anyone hope for?

Uncle Aquilla^[56] thinks it possible and if you cannot get leave of absence long enough you should write immediately how you wish matters arranged.

I sent you a letter by Mr. Carter which you have received by this.  Frank Kings health is very delicate.  He wrote the death of Bettie Lovelady^[57].

Jimmie if you were at home I think you would be happier and I know I would be very happy.  Come soon as you can though I know you will.

I dream of you nightly and think you are at home.  I hope soon to see my dearest Husband.  You have the double love of your wife in your bereavement.  God Bless and keep you dearest.

Patience BLACK.

(Page 26)

Fort Hebert   April 7th 1862

Dear Patience, I [have] an opportunity of sending you a letter by hand.  I will write you a few lines.  I have nothing new to write.  I wrote a letter to you two days ago.  The mails are so uncertain I do not know whether you will get it or not.  I expected a letter from you this morning but was disappointed.  I have received letters from you tolerable regular since I have been here.

When I am looking for a letter and don't get it I do the thing most natural (put my handkerchief to my eyes).  I never have got any letters except what I get from your own dear self.  I though some of my friends certainly would write to me but it seems they either haven't time or inclination to do so.  So long as I can get letters from you I shall be satisfied but if that solace should be denied me I don't hardly know whether I would survive or not.

My Dearest write often.   I will do the same.

J. S. CRAIN and Joe Riley will start home to-morrow morning on sick furlough.  I would like the best in the world to accompany them but it is utterly impossible for me to do so as there is no furloughs granted to any except those that have been sick. 

My Dearest you cannot imagine how bad I want to see you but that meeting is denied me for a while.  Yet I hope the time is not far distant when I will fly to the embraces of one that is every present with me.  The times that I think of you are innumerable.  I think of you while waking and meet you in the land of dreams every night. 

I have not been well for several days.  I have had the measles but they were very light.  It is now getting dark and I have no candle.  Give my love to all the family.  Kiss Ida for me.

                  God Bless you    Good Bye

                                           Your Jimmie

Letters page 27

South Bosque April 10th 1862 [Patience's 20th birthday]

___ my Jimmy;

The 10th has come but my Jewel has not, and I am lonely, while all the rest are filled with mirth over brother Jim's return.  I, too, am glad to see him though he tells me you are not well—which I am indeed sorry to hear.  I trust you will soon be well.

Jim came by the farm where he found Mollie and Mrs. Riley well.

Dearest, I do not know what to write as everything is so dull and lonely.  I can never see or hear of anything pleasant, - only your very kind letters, which come more regular than formerly.  Your letters are the greatest solace I have.  I treasure and preserve them as a treasure.

I went to see Mrs. Carter^[58] last week, and I do sympathize with her.  She looks so lonely since Mr. Carter[59] is gone.  He thought he would go to Ft. Hebert when he left here.  I have heard since he would not.  I sent you a letter by him.  Mrs. Carter said if he is near you, she would be glad if you would write about him in your letters; for he is so careless about writing himself.  Don't you think him a bad husband to neglect writing to so good a wife as his?

I visit Aunt Dillia tolerably often.  The place is very lonely.  Every place is lonely to me where my Jimmy is not.  My darling, my heart bleeds for you, for by this you have received my last letter bearing your Parent's death.  I do wish I was with you, -perhaps I could give you a word of comfort, though I am a very poor comforter.  Matt Caufield^[60] left this morning for war.  –Ida is very sick this evening.  She has a fever.  It is getting late, -so good night Black.

April 11th.  If you remember, Jimmie, seven months ago this day^[61] we were married.  It seems more like seven years than months, for it appears that I have known and loved you from infancy.  –Mrs. Wiley^[62] received a letter from Wiley last night.  He wrote he would bring Cale's remains home soon.  –Ida^[63] is better today.  –I was well pleased to receive that letter you sent me by Jim SMITH^[64].  Aunt Lizzie^[65] is coming for me next week.

I will look for you home before long.  I have never looked for you yet, -believing you would come.  Jim has been in bed nearly all day.  I do wish I could see you looking well; but I know you are sick.  Jim SMITH did not bring those things you sent, as he had to walk.  He left them in the care of Bob Dean.

 Uncle Nute^[66] and Jasper^[67] left this morning for Henderson.  I have not been spinning for some time.  I'm getting awfully lazy; it is dreadful to get up for breakfast, and you – poor fellow [have to get up as early.  I think of you at night, and know my bed is much better than yours.  I hope you will not have to stay away much longer.

 We have had plenty of rain here.  The Bosque is running.  We have had the hardest wind this spring.  I am frightened half out of my life some nights.  Aunt Dillia and Mrs. Wiley send love to you.  I am afraid Dearest, you do not take proper care of your health.  I hope you do, though.

Write soon, Jimmie, for I am ever anxious to hear from my idolized husband.  I hope soon to be with you, my love.

 Present my love to Brother Will  Nothing more.

 From your loving wife   P---

Letters page 28—James Black's parents Death mentioned

South Bosque

April 23rd. 1862

Dear Husband

I will write you a few lines this morning though nothing worthy of a perusal.

I received two letters from you last evening.  I am very sorry to learn your health was not good.

I am certain if you come home you will soon be well.  I had not heard from you for two weeks (horrid long time) and your letters were most welcomely received.  I received a letter from Sister Mollie 14 inst.  She wrote that Mother was confined to her bed for three months before her death, her disease was spinal affection.  Father was sick only six days with pneumonia.

She wrote to know where you were as she had received my letter stating that you would leave for Galveston.  She had not heard from you since.

She said she would remain at home this year.

Brother David's wife and Baby was with her.  She did not say anything of Brother David though Mr. King wrote that he would be at home soon.

I wrote to Sister Mollie a few days before I received her letter.  Joe Riley, Jess [Ellison] and Mr. Eubank called to see us last evening.

Mat thinks they call to see only her.  I know Joe Eubank came to see me.  He loves me a little and I love him some too.  You don't care do you? 

I shall look for you first of May; it will be a dreadful time coming.  I want to see you very much.  I will talk to you a great deal when I see you, if I don't forget all I know.

Ida receives your kisses with pleasure.  We had a very heavy frost last Sunday night though I believe nothing is seriously injured only vegetables.  Your wheat is headed.  Pap's has hardly commenced.

I will be disappointed if you do not come when I expect you and that sadly too.

Mother sends her love to you.  You must be sure to come.  Don't take any more cold if you can help it.  Receive my devoted heart your own.  Good Bye.  Heaven Bless you.

Patience.

Letters page 29 from William BLACK about his parent's deaths].

May 7th. 1862

Dear Brother;

I received two letters from you yesterday.  I heard of the death of Pa and Ma in a letter to Stephen Davidson. Father died with pneumonia.  Mother had been sick a long time. They did not know what was the matter with her. There has been a great deal of sickness in Alabama this spring, and a great many deaths.

----Betty Lovelady died fourth of March.  I would go to Alabama if I could get there.  The north has possession of the railroads and rivers, so I couldn't get there.  The last we heard from David^[68] he was in Virginia.  ___ two months ago wrote to his father he saw David.

I expect it is impossible to get any money from Ellison and Shaver. They are both going to the war, James if Dr. Robinson is there see him and tell him there is sixty two dollars coming to me, from him, for the horse I sold him.  I want you to get it and if I can I will send you the note.  I am overseeing two miles from Nashville this year for 400 dollars.

I am as well as I ever expect to be, though I will always be lame. The connection are all well here as far as I know.

                Write to me when you get this.
                           Your brother, William BLACK.

[added note on same page]

Mr. BLACK, Jessie ELLISON was here last night, just what anyone would expect.  He said he did not see your brother William, but heard he would be off for war soon.  All of your relatives there are well. Will said he wished you and Jim could get into Hinges Company, as the one you are in is a disagreeable one, and is ridiculed by other Companies.  Will is sorry he forgot to give you your money.  He paid Uncle Newel the money he loaned you.  Nothing funny has happened since I wrote.

Well Mother is calling me to breakfast, so Good Bye, darling Jimmie

                         Patie
                  Wednesday 4th. [June 1862]

Page 30

[Sandra Smith Gwilliam's note about this next letter:  James BLACK may have gone home on leave for a while because of his parent's death.  This seems to be his first letter since returning.]

Fort Hebert June 1st 1862

My dearest Wife  I this morning take my pen in hand to write you a few lines though I have nothing of importance to write.  I arrived here last evening about seven o'clock   I have enjoyed very good health since I left home, the health of this place is very good now, there is scarcely any sickness in camp.  The boys look so much better now than when I left that I hardly knew them.

There has been reorganization and a new election for officers which Will can tell you all about as he was here when it took place.

I hardly know how or what to write it has been so long since I wrote a letter.  I can only say that I love you which is nothing new for you to hear from me.

It is not thought the Yankees will attack Galveston as there are no more vessels in sight.  Houston and Galveston are now under martial law.  No person that is subject to do military service is allowed to leave either place without a pass from the provost Marshall.

Joe Riley sends his best respects to all the Bosque folks.  Tell Matt Jim West is well but I have not delivered her message to him yet. 

I have not found all my clothes.  I have two shirts two pair of socks, one pair drawers that I can't find but if I should happen to need such things I will press Will's as he has left them here.  I am very lonesome here without your presence to cheer me.

When I write again I hope I will have something that will interest you.

I often times think of the happy hours I spent with you while at home but they are fled for a while at least.  I want you to write everything that happens in my absence.

I can think of nothing more to write.  My love take special care of yourself.

                        May angels attend you.
                             Good Bye 
                                  James BLACK

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Lonesome  Home

June 2nd 1862

Well my Jimmie Oh!  I do wish I could see you and talk to you instead of writing.  Will^[69], Uncle Birt,^[70] Matt^[71], Sue and mother all seem to be in fine spirits this evening but poor Patie's heart is very sad. 

Uncle Birt arrived Sat. Night [31 May] on the Brazos and came up with Will this morning.  He left all tolerably well save Hat^[72] and her little sister.  They have very bad coughs.  Hat is still chilling.  Will gave me a letter from her to you she said she had no one to call her flat foot now.  He also gave me one from your brother which I will send to you.

I went to Mrs. Wiley's the evening you left but oh, there was no light there Jimmie was gone we went to see Mrs. Caufield the next day we stopped with Mrs. Carter^[73] in the evening but I found no relief from no one you cannot well imagine I could see you going from me.  When I got home they told me Will and Uncle Newel was coming home that was enough my heart was full and it run over to think they coming and you going.  But I found some relief in tears. 

Jimmie if it grieves you to know my sad feeling forgive for writing them, but it is to you alone that I can tell them, no one else can comprehend the meaning of my words no one but my cherished Idol…

Will tells me that furloughs are granted to none sick or well.  If I only knew you would get well and keep ___ I would be much happier.  My darling do take special care of yourself.  Don't think it foolishness to be careful, I wish you would take something for your cough.  I fear it will get to be like Uncle Birts which is very bad.

I am so sorry you left so soon as you did for Uncle Birt is anxious to see you.  Will also regrets not seeing you.  Will looks to be in better health than you.  I went to the gardens a few evenings since and much to my sorrow I found something had scratched up the beans we planted.  I found one bean planted it again and named it Jimmie-Pattie.

Well it is getting late and all the young folks are walking.  I will not walk as I have no dear one to lean upon but will read some in lifes comforter [Bible] and try to take its counselor as my guide and pray that my loved one will do the same.  Now one sweet kiss and good bye.

 Tuesday morning before breakfast, Well Jimmie I slept very well last night and feel very well this morning I will try not have the blues anymore if you will be a good boy and take good care of your health and let me hear from you very often, and hear that you can come home before a great while.  I will try to enjoy myself finely I have been very well ever since you left which seems to be two weeks.  Mrs. Stone is gone to Waco to spend a week or two  Aunt Dillia returned yesterday.  Mrs. Ellison and Lou came with her.  I will go up soon and hear the news from Anna.

Will said he was very sorry you didn't get in camp before the election^[74].  If you had been you could have beaten Bolton for First Lieutenant.  I hope peace will be made soon, then Jimmie (page 32) can come home and stay with Patie.

I dreamed last night.  I was at Corinth they were fighting desperately I saw you leaving home.  I have seen you too many times since you left. 

Uncle Birt will stay until cool weather.  He sends his love to you.  Was very sorry to find you gone.  We have a barrel of whiskey here.  I feel dizzy from the effects of it. 

You will get letters often.  Will will write soon.  Write soon.

Good bye from your Wife.

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Fort Hebert  June 6th 1862

Dear Wife   I have nothing of interest to write you more than my health is very good.  It is better now than it has been for several months.  The health of this place has become good.

I have been hard at work all morning cleaning up our barracks; have just finished and now have nothing to do but write to you.

I am very lonesome down here since I returned.  It almost seems that I am amongst strangers although I know I have as many friends here as any one in the company.

I think some of the boys have regretted their exchange of officers but it is too late to grieve over spilt milk—as for myself it matters but little who the officers are.  I expect to do my duty and that is all they can require.  I have been on duty but once since I returned.  Expect to be on again tomorrow.

My Darling, I have nothing in the world that will interest you to write.  I have had some very pleasant dreams about you since I left home.  I dream of you almost every night.  Last night I dreamed the war had ceased and peace restored in favor of the Confederacy.  When I awakened this morning I was making preparations to start home.

Joe Riley and Taylor are well.  Joe wishes to be remembered by you also the Girls.

My love is so much noise in camps that I can't write.  If I could I have no news to communicate.  I have not received a letter from you yet but look for me tonight and I hope I will not be disappointed for I am very anxious to hear from you.

It is unnecessary for me to request you to write for I know you will do it.  Tell Will to write to me.

May Heavens choicest blessings abide with you My Patience.

                       Good Bye
                                  Your Jimmie

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South Bosque  June 6th 1862

Dearest Jimmie:

I am seated this very warm Sabbath morning to write to you my thoughts and what has taken place since I wrote you last, though nothing special, but still it is very pleasant to write to my loved one when I know he will appreciate each word.  Jimmie, if I did not have you to write to I should pass this day very lonely for it is so warm I cannot walk out and I do not feel disposed to enjoy the presence of anyone.   Jimmie is all my thought.  Now don’t call me selfish as some are disposed to do, for my heart and thought are seated on the most----being on earth.

I almost imagine I am conversing with you this morning; that is I am doing the talking and you are listening.  Last night was a calm moonlight night.  I went to bed early-not to sleep but to look out on the moonlight and think of my beloved husband wondering at his purity—thinking if he could possibly be loved by a human heart more than he deserves.  No Jimmie, I am fully confident you are worthy of my whole heart; but while I am so nearly idolizing you I must not forget the adoration due to our Creator.  I wondered where you were, what you were doing, if you were well.  I knew you were thinking of me if awake and if asleep perhaps dreaming of me.  After a long time I fell asleep and dreamed you came to me looking well.  You told me you had been to Nacogdoches on some particular business.

Mrs. Wiley, Aunt Dillia^[75], Mrs. Ellison and Lou spent last Thursday with us.  Aunt Dillia appears to be much benefited by her visit.  Mollie^[76] and Annie^[77] were not well while they were gone.  Annie did not have much to say about her visit.  Aunt Dillia was sorry you were gone.  She thought you ought not to have gone back until your cough was entirely cured. Lou looks some better than she did last summer though [she] looks badly yet.  She asked me many questions of you-asked to see your ambrotype.  She said it was you[r] image.  She said to me “Jim thinks you are the greatest being alive, doesn’t he?”  I told her I expected so.  She has a very interesting little girl.  Her husband is in Virginia.  She has not heard from him in two months.  Oh Dear!  If I should not hear from you in so long a time I would go crazy.

Mrs. Ellison told me to tell you she thought she would be to see you for she thought a great deal of you.  She said she thought your brother would not go to war as his is not able.  He intends visiting Bosque this summer.  Jack Shaver is not going to war.  Mart and Jess will leave next week for Corrinth^[78].  I will write a letter to sister Mollie and give to Mart to mail when he crosses the Mississippi, if he ever does.  Wiley is gone with Slaughter to drive beeves somewhere.  I heard he would go from there to Corrinth.

They have been cutting wheat two days here.  Some of it is not worth cutting.  The heads are not filled and it is falling down so bad.  Pap said he would send somewhere and get different seed and try it once again.  Uncle Mat’s^[79] wheat is some better that ours.

I spent yesterday with Mrs. Wiley.  Sue, Mat and Ida went with me.  Sue drove the buggy.  Ida and I walked down the creek bank.  Mat and Sue went to see Mrs. Carter in the evening.  Mart JONES drove Ida and I home.  Mrs. Ida gave us a very nice dinner.  She had nice honey and plenty of other nice things.  I thought of you all day long,

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and talked of you often.  Birt and Will went down to Aunt Mary’s^[80] Friday.  They will be at home next Tuesday; then if I don’t get a letter I will cry.  I looked for one yesterday but was disappointed.  Uncle Birt quarrels at me about having the blues.  He doesn’t feel disposed to talk and try to put it all on my----^[81].

Jimmie, do you remember this day one year ago?  If you do not I will tell you.  I was at Mrs. Wiley’s and you came home with me in the evening.  Next morning we left for Henderson.  Little did we dream of such a change as has taken place since then.  Hugh and Lewis Haley [82]are gone to the oil springs.  I have been very well ever since you left.  I have had the dyspepsia but very little.  I think magnesia will help it a great deal if not cure it.

Mrs. Stone is in Waco yet.  I miss her a great deal; though I prefer her room to her company.  Ida is much better since Frank is gone.  Jim speaks of going to join you in a few weeks.  He said he would go next week, but I don’t think he will get off then.  Write to me if you want me to send your money by him.  He and Mollie went to Mrs. Carter’s this morning so I am all alone; well Mother, Pap, Uncle Acquilla [JONES] and Mat are here.  Mr. Alexander[83] is gone again.  I believe Mrs. Alexander was here the other day.  She said she had endeavored to keep him at home, that perhaps the conscript law might let him pass.  I do hope peace will be made soon as a great many think it will; then wouldn’t we be so happy if you could come home to go to war no more.  I can’t see how I could contain myself.  I heard of a fight at Corrinth in which we were victorious, but cannot know that it is reliable.  Well I am thinking you have very warm weather for drilling.  We have had three summer days.

Mr. Hold, the joining farmer to Pap, had two Negroes to die last week very suddenly with the congestion of the head and bowels.  Pap bought a Negro man a short time since and sent him here to cut wheat and the man he bought of him was to meet him in Waco yesterday to close the trade.  Pap went to Waco.  The man came here and carried his Negro off so he played quite a trick.

Jimmie I am going to spin some next week if I don’t get too lazy.  I thought I would spin the past week but was too lazy.  It was morning when I commenced writing; it is evening now and all the folks are asleep.  I have taken a nap.  It is so warm I could not sleep long so I awoke and have taken a bath.  I feel quite well considering you are gone.  I would feel much better if I knew you were well.  I am so anxious to hear from you.  Do not write that you are well if you are not.  I want to know the truth at all times let come in whatever form it may.  I have moved my bed in[to] Mother’s room.  I have the bed all to myself.  I leave one pillow for you sometimes, but you do not come.  Well, I will not get mad if you will promise to come soon.  I know you will come soon as peace will be made soon.  Tomorrow is the ninth, then my prophecy is out, and if I am false I will prophesy no more, but let things take their course as I see they are going to do so at any rate.

(page 36)

Mother and Matt are weaving some towels.  Rachel is spinning now.  Pap sent for twenty bales of thread.  Mother wishes me to send her best wishes to you.  Ida got mad at me the other day.  She said, “Brother Jimmie is dead and I don’t care and I don’t care if you get dead either”.  Will teases her greatly, asking her who she loves best.  She wants to please Will and I so she will say you and Jimmie best.  Sometimes she says Will when she thinks I am not paying attention.

Well Jimmie, I want to see and hear from you bad enough, but I need not tell you for you know it well enough.  Jimmie, I read a few lines in a magazine, which pleased so I will dedicate to you the lines.  Write to me soon.  Come to me sooner.  Take care of your heart and health for my sake as well as for you own.  God Bless you

                        “To Jimmie”

            I am lonely here without thee

            Though others round me are

            I miss from day its sunshine

            And from night its star.

   The green grass looks not half so green,

   The flowers not half so bright,

   It is thy presence love I want,

   To give them clearer light.

   Then come to me; my heart awaits,

   With greetings warm and true

   Thy love caress it droops without,

   As flowers for want of dew,

   I’ve none to tell of all the love

   I’ve garnered up for thee:

   My heart will break if it must keep

   Such heavy secrecy.

   Then come oh come!  I’m lonely here,

   Though others round me are.

    I miss from day its sunshine

   And from the night its star.

                                    Patience

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Bosque Valley       June 10th 1862

Well brother Jimmie according to promise I will write you a few lines in Paties letter although she has written all the news.  The news we have at the present is glorious if we knew it to be true.  If it is true which I hope and pray is the war will be at a close in a short time.   Jessie and Mart left yesterday for the war again.  I received a letter from Mattie a few days ago she sends her best wishes to you.  Well Brother Jimmie, after I have eaten a hardy dinner I will finish my letter.  I miss you so much since you left.  I would be so glad if we could get a letter from you.  I can’t see what is the reason we can’t get letters from you.  This is Sunday and oh what a lonesome day it is all the boys gone.  I haven’t got a letter from my (illeg.) since you left but I am anxious to get one, you know.  You ought to be at home to see me weave.  I will soon learn to be a great weaver.  Will says tell you that he is just ready to go down on middle Bosque in bathing, he also says tell you he saw the greatest sight yesterday, that was Mrs. Stone and Mrs. Black in bathing; he said Mrs. Stone^[84] could swim like a stone.

I had the pleasure of going to the city^[85] last Thursday; we had a nice little crowd: Mrs. Wiley, Jessie, Lou, Mollie, Jim and myself.  Lou had the pleasure of riding with Jessie there and back.  Lou had her ambrotype taken for Jessie.  She was on one side and he on the other.  Brother Will and I will go up to see Mollie J. (Jones) this evening.  Well as I have nothing to write I will stop.  Give my compliments to all my friends.  Patie says tell you she is sick and she wants you to come home.  I hope the time isn’t far distant that you may meet with us again.  I expect we will have a school here before long.  You must excuse this.  I will try to do better the next time.  Write soon and often. You have the best love of a sister.  Good Bye

            Mat C^[86]. on old Bosque

Jimmie in camps God protect you is my prayer.  Don’t forget Jimmie West.

Well Jimmie, the sun has gone to rest.  I have just finished supper and I am seated on the end of the gallery where oftimes I sat with you.  The day has pass[ed] and night is fast approaching.  Oh if I can only dream a pleasant dream of you tonight I will feel much better and then a letter tomorrow evening and hear you are well.  Jimmie if you were sitting by my side the happiest of the happy I would be.  Jimmie I am sick and you must come home.  Oh dear I am so lonesome these times and I never will be otherwise until you bring my heart home.  Well it is dark and I can write no more.  Present my compliments to Joe Riley^[87]; tell him to wash his face and kiss you for me.  May angels guard you now and forever.

            God Bless you
                                    Your sweetheart
                                                            Patience BLACK

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South Bosque      June 17th (62)

Dear husband

I will tell you how well I feel this morning.  I feel as though I was a new person.  Can you guess why I feel so well?  I will tell you.  I received three letters from you last evening.  I perused their contents with the greatest pleasure, finding you well when I imagined you sick, dead or something terrible had happened to you.  I will try to be so foolish no more, but trust you where I have placed you—in the care of providence.  That wretch of a postmaster did not place my letters with the Bosque mail; he would declare I had no letters there.  Uncle Aquilla made him examine the office and the lazy dog found three.  I was nearly sick all yesterday.  I was so afraid I would get no letters.

I sat on the gallery and looked for Will until everything was one dark mess; then went to the window and saw him coming.  He rode dreadful slow I thought, but brought good news at last.  I slept tolerably well last night—dreamed of riding with you in a sled.  I felt this morning as if I could spin two hanks.  I commenced and spun one big broache and thought I would write you a few words of the times.

Will, Uncle Birt, Jim and the children went on middle Bosque fishing this morning.  Will and Birt have returned with no fish.  You ask me to write all that takes place.  Well there is nothing interesting, funny or dreadful occurring.  I have seen none of our neighbor ladies since I wrote you last.  I am so busy spinning I have no time for visiting.  I will get the thread for coat and pants done this week.  I am still knitting on the same stocking.  It is in the foot.  I will finish it by [the] time you get home if I hold out faithful and I think I have the gift of continuance.  Well I believe I am tolerably well rested so I will go to spinning and bid you good morning My Jimmie.

Thursday morning June 19th

Jimmie I will finish my letter this morning and send it to the office tomorrow if an opportunity presents itself, though I have nothing but nonsense to write; but you call your letter foolishness when I think them very interesting and judging you by myself—you will appreciate it from the right source.  I feel rather weak this morning.  I attribute it to spinning more than usual yesterday, and we had visitors too.  You could not guess in a coon’s age who they were so I will tell you.  They were Mrs. Downs, Mrs. Saunders, and Mrs. SMITH (Mr. SMITH’s wife).

Jim went to Waco yesterday.  Carried Mother’s wool to the factory; brought Mollie and Mat a very pretty gingham dress each, and no news in particular.  Mat is making grand preparations to attend the examination at Waco last of this month.  We look for Uncle Newel and Aunt Lizzie^[88] up in a few days.  Miss Callie Reece sent us word she would (Pg 39) be here last Friday but did not come.  I expect her tomorrow. 

Pap and the boys are going on Bluff Creek tomorrow to a sale of cattle and horses.  Mother and Ida are going to see Mrs. Alexander^[89] this morning.  Ida is in ecstasies.  How the little imp loves to visit.  I have not been to see her since you left.  She abuses me terrible. 

We had a very hard wind yesterday evening.  It came up very suddenly.  The beds were on the gallery.  It carried them away with one blast and very strange to say I was not frightened, though I was glad it came in daylight. 

Annie Jones is down here for Mat.  There are some young ladies here from station who wish to see Mat.  Mrs. Caufield^[90] with some station ladies, have gone to Waco today.  Mrs. Wiley will come here Saturday.   Mat and I will go home with her.  Do you remember the night you and Joe Riley robbed one there--when you go[t] stung the lip?  I do very well and I thought your lip looked very sweet.

Annie^[91] said to tell you she wanted to see you very bad.  Jimmie, when I think that you are gone for a long time and that I must pass evening after evening alone my patience is nearly ready to tell your Patience Good Bye.  I say I am alone.  Well my heart is alone for there is none other but yours it will recognize.  Often then I am seated on the gallery (torn out) the evening I can see you so plain.  Yes every movement of yours and there is purity blended with every action.  I feel often as though I was conversing with you.  I cannot dream of you as I used to do.  I wish I could for it is very pleasant to think of a pleasant dream of an absent loved one.  I think I sleep much sounder when I did when I dreamed so much.

Will is very restless since he came home.  He said he enjoyed himself much better while in camp.  I told him I wished he could take your place.  I am sure you would enjoy home.  I cannot say when Jim will go to camp.  He is horse hunting.  You can’t imagine how I was delighted to hear you were getting well, I hope you will soon be in perfect health.  I have asked Ida what I must tell you for her.  She said “Kiss bud Jimmie for me”.  I told her I could not.  She said Joe Riley could, he was at the wars.  She sleeps with me but she will not lie behind though.  Last Monday evening before Will returned from Waco Uncle Birt came from Uncle Mat’s.  Ida thought he had been to Waco too.  She came to me and said, “Patie, why aren’t you crying?” I asked her why.  She said “You didn’t get a letter from bud Jimmie”.  She thinks if I complain at all it is because something is the matter with you.

Jimmie, I do want to see you so much.  I do hope it will not be long before I see you.  Jimmie, I do not say you write foolishness for you do not, or at least I do not see it as such, for I find an interest in each word.  I have never gone for those dewberries.  I am afraid of snakes unless you were with me.  I am as fond of [grapes] as usual.  I have the dyspepsia but very little.  My health is very good.

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Uncle Birt said if you would write to him he would take as great pleasure in answering your letter as you would his.  He said since he had gotten to be an old man^[92] he wished for his nephews to write to him first.  I think prospects very, very flattering for a marriage between the parties we were speaking of before you left.  Tell Joe Riley Mat send her compliments.  Return my compliments to him.

Jack Haley and Malstead [Halstead ?][93] are gone to the Indian nation to tend a mill for the Confederacy.  Mother’s compliments to you.  Take care of yourself little fellow.  I will write to you often—at least once a week.  Look in you little mirror and kiss Jimmie for me.

May health and peace surround thee, and love with all its bright train waft precious treasures around thee and life bring thee no pain.

                        God Bless you my own
                                                Patience

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