"Gene,
Ernie, c'mon guys, time to get up." The message comes with
a firm but gentle shake.
"If
you don't get up right now you'll miss the school bus. Remember,
you have to pick up flowers at Gramps this morning. Don't make me
come up here again!" |
Flowers? What
flowers? How did flowers get into this dream? Oh no
. . . flowers! This is it
. . . it's Decoration Day. I've been dreading this
day for weeks! ”Four-score and seven years
ago, our fathers brought forth upon this continent”
. . . forget it, I can't do it, I’ll never be able to
remember it all, it’s too long. I’ll blank out
. . . and then I’ll die of embarrassment! I want
to go back to sleep, but I’ll never be able to escape. Mom won't
let me slip back into my dream and besides if I can make it through today
somehow, summer vacation is dead ahead.
"BOYS?"
This time it’s from downstairs and loud.
"YES
MOM, I'M UP"
"YOUR
BROTHER TOO?" |
Pulling off his covers
and stealing his pillow I yell down, "HE IS NOW MOM".
Ernie can really sleep,
he must get it from Dad, who's a world champion sleeper. Even sitting
on the edge of the bed, he's really still asleep. But the lucky
bum, he doesn't have anything to worry about. All he has to do is
sing some patriotic song with a great big class, while my little class
has to recite the whole Gettysburg Address
. . . from memory! Classes get smaller the higher
you go at Beeman Academy, because kids drop out to work with their folks
on the farm. It’s a lot harder to fake it, if you forget your
lines in a small class.
" . . . a
new nation, conceived in liberty and dedicated to the principle that”
. . . with a lot of luck I might just be able to do it.
After all, I've been working on it over and over for weeks now.
"GENE?
ERNEST?"
"COMING
MOM . . . WE'RE ALMOST READY MOM".
I hurry into the fancier
than usual clothes that Mother has laid out. Ernie is moving too
now and breakfast and wood smoke smells are rising up the stairs. It’s
time to get rolling! The sooner I get started, the sooner it will
be over with.
I hit every third stair
step on the way down, and flying low do my best to set a record, through
Dad's den, out the doors and down the hill path to the outhouse.
Sitting on the old board seat, I keep one eye out for the ever-present
outhouse hornet, while the other roams over the south meadow and the familiar
near woods. Crows calling from near and far dominate the softer morning
sounds, and give me an audio perspective of the huge size of my wild playground.
I always leave the door open when the weather permits. There's no
real privacy problem and I much prefer the view outside, to the old weathered
magazines inside. I love reading and I have great reading material,
but I don't want to trust my good stuff to the toilet's climate.
Dad has stressed taking special care of books, and my brother and I even
have our own library. The conductor on the afternoon train to Middlebury,
often throws out bundles of comics, newspapers and magazines, into a big
field by the house. There is always a race and an argument over who
will get what and the portion that I'm able to claim is added to my personal
collection.
It’s going to be a
beautiful day; the kind of a day our “Merrymen” could really revel in.
It sure would be great if we could get a few more members for our little
archery club; right now it’s just Paul, Ernie and me. As I double-time
it back towards the big old sixteen-room house, I pass Ernie stumbling
down the path.
“Too
much wine last night Friar Tuck?” |
I get that great Ernie
chuckle and a big grin, so I guess he really is waking up.
Back in the kitchen my
nose tells me it’s time to eat.
“Where's
your brother?” Mom asks. “Go wash up”.
“He's
down the hill . . . he's coming . .
. how'd you know I was hungry for pancakes?”
“You're
always hungry for pancakes, do you think you know your piece?”
“Yeah,
right now . . . but what if I forget it up there
. . . on the stage?”
“You'll
be fine. You'll survive no matter what happens, don't worry about
it. Here start on these.” |
She goes out through
the den and the entry shed and from the front door I hear her familiar
long distance call. “EERNNEEEESST!”
It always amazes me how deep in the woods we can be and still hear her
when she does that!
By the time Ernie appears
and cleans up, his pancakes and bacon are on the table waiting and Mom
is cleaning off the griddle tops of the old wood stove. She saves
the waxed paper bread wrappers just for this purpose, and the waxy smoke
rising off the hot stovetop, mixes harshly with the breakfast odors.
She scrubs until the whole top is shiny black and clean enough to cook
what Dad calls his “Vermont stovetop thick fries”
on. She presses the end of a bread wrapper to the stovetop, just
long enough to soften the wax on the patch-like seal that holds the ends
of the wrapper together. Peeling off the seal she walks to the table
and quickly sticks it on Ernie's shirtfront like a badge, where the hot
wax cools and adheres. Even though it’s just a silly bread wrapper
sticker, he beams as proudly as if he had just received the Medal of Honor
from the president himself.
“You
two go easy on that maple syrup, or you'll run out way before next spring!
Remember
how hard you worked to gather all that sap.”
“What
time is it Mom?”
“Time
you should already be gone?”
“Are
you coming to see the program”, my brother asks?
“Of
course, and I’ll wait and bring you both home with me afterwards. Your
Dad won't be there, he worked the midnight till morning shift and he probably
won't wake up till supper time.”
“Ernie,
turn around here . . . look at your collar.” |
Dad has her trained
well. He thinks we should always look like those kids in the
Sears catalog.
Mom has finally pushed
us out the door pulling the bread sticker off Ernie and we're on our way
for the last day of school and the big Decoration Day celebration.
There are no books to carry today, and if it weren't for my lunchbox, I
might think it was already the first day of summer vacation. We pass
overgrown foundations on the “flat”, the last evidence that this was once
the town of Beldens. I bet I could find a neat snake in
there pretty quick. The shiny clean morning challenges me to
participate in endless adventures offered by the woods and fields and I
could easily talk my brother into playing any role, but that old Gettysburg
address won't even let me dwell on the possibilities.
Ernie is kicking stones
as we go down the dirt road past the pump. This afternoon when it’s
all over, we'll be carrying two heavy buckets of very cold water back up
this hill from that pump. It’s hard metallic tasting water, with
tiny particles that flash in the sunlight as they swirl. We have
to get water every day summer and winter, because there is no running water
in Beldens. As we pass the road down to the power plant where Dad
works, I realize that it shouldn't be long before Little Beaver and the
“bug-pickers” come to camp for a few days, at the old gypsy site. Visitors
are rare in Beldens, especially children our own age. He
won't have a lot of time to play with us, because he'll be working with
his family collecting hellgrammites from the Otter to sell to fisherman,
but I bet he'll join the “Merrymen”.
“Now
we are engaged in a great civil war
. . . ”
“Do
you think they'll have doughnuts for us at Gramps?
Are
we gonna check out the brook?”
“Nope,
not today Ernie.”
“How
come?” “Don't you feel good?”
“Yeah,
I'm ok, just got a lot on my mind.” |
Ernie kicks the obligatory
stone off the underpass bridge into the brook. “Stuff
like Verna Wilder?”
That little creep can
really run when he knows he's in danger, but I only chase him for a little
way before settling back into my meditative stride. I hadn't thought
about it but he's right, she'll be there too, just one more reason why
I can't mess up.
“We have come to dedicate a
portion of that field . . .
”
Topping the rise in the
road we can finally see Gramps house. It still seems strange knowing
that Aunt Margie is dead. She understood about so many things.
Grandpa Warner has been watching for us, and he comes out the door with
coffee mug in hand, waving. As we reach his drive with the shiny
Studebaker in it, he's heading for the garage.
“Morning
Gramps” we both chorus as we catch up.
“What
are you two rapscallions up to this morning? S’pose you're here to
raid my lilac bush, huh?”
“Could
we Gramps?”
“Depends
. . . what you boys got to trade?” He's gets down his pruning
shears.
“Aw,
we ain’t got nuthin’ Gramps” Ernie says.
“C'mon
bub, I’ll bet you got something.” Suddenly the little man's got Ernie
by the ear, and threatening with the pruning shears he says, “you don't
need this here ear . . . I could use a spare ear!”
Then just as quickly he's headed towards the front lawn, laughing as he
goes. |
Every kid is supposed
to bring flowers on this day and extra ones if possible, so we cut enough
lilacs from the big bushes near the road, to make two huge fragrant bundles.
“Don't
s’pose you boys would like some doughnuts. Come on in quick like, while
I find something to tie around these flowers.” He pulls out
his pocket watch, and flipping it open says, “You better hurry, the bus
is going to be up at the corner any minute.” |
Doughnuts in one hand,
flowers and lunch boxes in the other, we're back out on the road headed
for the corner, when the bus tops the hill. We take off at full speed
trailing showers of blossoms, while the bus pulls up by the mailboxes and
waits for us.
Out of breath we climb
up into the yellow school bus, and instead of good clean air my panting
lungs are suddenly filled with the heavy perfume of a busload of flowers.
I work my way through the jungle of blooms finding a seat with friends
and the old bus lurches off on the long ride to New Haven. There
are so many flowers that I can't even see Ernie anymore. The floor
of the bus is strewn with a rainbow of petals and leaves, as kids torment
each other with the bouquets. Boys wave them under the noses of rosy
cheeked country girls, who giggle and scream in mock alarm. It will
be a wonder if there are any blossoms left on the stems by the time we
get there. From time to time the bus stops with protesting brakes and
even more blooms force their way aboard, with other children attached.
Normally I love the smell of lilacs, but the sickly sweet air in the bus
is so concentrated that it’s making me drunk and I feel like I must get
out soon or become sick. Just in time we arrive and when I'm able
to work my way off the bus, I gulp fresh air like a drowning man.
Ernie stumbles out behind me and he looks kind of green too. Vermont
air is a masterful blend of clover, ripening hay, miscellaneous wild flowers,
mystery ingredients, very rich oxygen and varying amounts of cow manure.
It has no equal that I know of and it’s never tasted better to me than
it does right now.
We join the students
bringing flowers and file through the basement where the shop classes are
held. This is the very same place where Mr. Norton took me to
be paddled once. The flower bundles are piled on long tables,
where teachers and volunteer mothers are already busy reassembling them
into balanced bouquets, one for every student. I'm really glad to be
rid of the darn things.
When I get to my classroom,
the final preparations for our part of the program begin. The order
in which we will stand on stage is determined by height, with the tallest
in the middle and the shorter ones on the ends of a single line.
This is also the way we will sit before taking the stage. It seems
to take forever moving from one end to the other, before the teacher is
satisfied. Our class is then taken outside and across to the town
hall for a final rehearsal. We practice the walk from our seats
to the stage and back maintaining the lineup our teacher decided on.
Finally we try the recitation one last time and to my dismay I see that
the others are going to depend on me to set the pace! Some lag just
far enough behind my lead to get help on the parts they can't remember.
I
hope Mom is right about my surviving this. The teacher looks
worried. Serves her right for thinking up such an impossible assignment.
Back in the classroom we clean out our desks for the last time and I secretly
write a note to Verna. Next on the agenda is the code of conduct
for the day and the warnings.
“No
talking on the way to the cemetery and no whistling.
“You
don't have to actually march, but try to stay in line and keep your flowers
to yourself.
"When
we get to the cemetery, ABSOLUTELY NO RUNNING!
“Quietly
find a grave marked with a flag, put your flowers on it and as quickly
as you can WITHOUT RUNNING,
return to the road and form up again.
The same rules apply to the march
back to school. Now children we will go to lunch and when the bell
rings everyone will pick up their flowers in the basement and meet in front
of the school.
“Most
important of all, don't forget to go to the bathroom! You won't have another
chance for a while.
“Remember,
this is a solemn occasion!” |
The next to the last
bell of the year rings and a bunch of happy kids pour out the doors and
across to the lunchroom. A lot of kids take the hot lunches, but
Ernie and I aren't too adventurous when it comes to food and ever since
the famous “Cheese Fondue” incident, we take
no chances. Often we are able to make great trades with Moms homemade
cookies and other goodies, for choice items from the lunch menu.
I have actually sold Moms treats and used the money to shop the big penny
candy counter at the New Haven general store, during noon hour. I
see Ernie making some great deals, but I'm not in top form and it’s all
Abraham Lincoln's fault.
“We cannot dedicate, we cannot
consecrate . . . ”
I finish my peanut butter
& jelly sandwich and two oatmeal cookies, then putting my lunch box
on the shelf I head for the bathroom just before the bell rings.
By being early in line to pick up my flowers, I don't have to stay in the
basement as long and that suits me just fine, because it now smells just
as potent as the bus did. Mr. Sherman the janitor is there, smiling
at everyone as he cleans up the mess in the shop. Back outside I
take my time getting up to the front of the school, because I'm early anyhow.
I'm hoping to see Verna so I can give her my note. When I finally
spot her she's just entering the shop area, so I don't even make eye contact
with her, but I do take notice of the bright red ribbons in her blue-black
hair. This may help me locate her later on. I see Ernie in line
and it’s moving slowly now. He's gonna get another big snoot full
of lilacs!
When I reach the front
of the school things are really beginning to take shape. A band from
a larger school nearby is already there and teachers are trying to hurry
their classes into the proper spot. Soon some two hundred students
with their teachers, representing first grade through the last year of
high school, are in place by class behind a small marching band.
People from the few homes around the school have come out to see their
New Haven Decoration Day parade. It hasn't been that long since the
end of the war and patriotism is still running high. I imagine
that even in a town as small as New Haven some of these families lost loved
ones in the fighting. The kids are restless and it seems to take
forever before the bandleaders whistle blows. The band steps out
with drums rattling and like a falling row of dominoes, it takes a second
for the movement to reach our place in line.
Walking at a pleasant
pace . . . flowers in
hand, with flags flying at the front, we move along the street under the
big elms. At the first right hand corner the whistle blows twice
and on the second blast the little band bursts to life with an appropriately
patriotic tune. Another turn to the left and we are on the road to
the cemetery, passing a small park with an old bandstand. I don't
think I've ever seen anyone in that park and it always seems wild and just
slightly overgrown. Across the street at the General Store, a handful
of people are standing out on the wide board porch, in front of the tin
signs. They wave to us as we march out of the small hamlet of New
Haven, heading into the bright Vermont countryside for the mile march to
the old graveyard. There is no traffic on the narrow paved road and
classic Vermont farm country stretches away on the right, with distant
silos and barns dotting the hazy landscape. The light breeze, warm sun
and puffy clouds soon transport me to some lazy place half in and half
out of reality. My mind plays along the distant horizon and the sounds
of the band seem somehow filtered and far away. Startled dairy cows
run away, some with bells ringing, as our noisy passing disturbs the quiet
afternoon.
I drift in and out of
my reverie and we make steady progress down the grade, until suddenly the
whistle blows and the band stops playing. The whistle blast brings
me back and I see that we are still a little way from the entrance, but
getting close. The bass drum counts solo cadence as we near the big arched
iron gate, leading into the trees of old Evergreen cemetery. When
we make the left turn to enter even the bass drum is stilled and the silence
of eternal rest rushes in. Some sort of magic in the moment,
causes the group of children to indeed remain hushed except for their footsteps,
and they move deeper into the center of the heavily shaded graveyard.
A hand signal halts our
quiet group and another disperses the formation. Responding
to the silent signal, children start moving through the deep green shadows,
over and around the resting-places of their ancestors. Many of the stones
here date from the 1700’s, people who lived when Ethan Allen, Seth Warner
and Widow Story were making history. We have never been
told who places the little American flags on the graves of the veterans,
but they glow like beacons among the weathered stones. There is frantic
competition among the more timid students, to find a flagged grave close
to the road and quickly claim it with a bouquet. This is probably
a frightening experience for some of the younger children and I see some
markers with more than one bundle of flowers. Someone either gave
up on finding an undecorated stone, or decided against venturing further
and just doubled a previous tribute.
Those of us more adventurous
move farther from the road and bending low begin to run like Indians despite
the warnings. It takes the flexible body of a fit youngster, to navigate
safely through sometimes nearly hidden headstones and markers while on
the run. An occasional thud and grunt, means that someone near you
has seriously overestimated his skill. One of the reasons for hurrying,
is that all of the boys who are brave enough are planning a second, secret
pilgrimage, before rejoining the formation
After a search that takes
longer than I had hoped, I find a grave to honor in a far corner.
Moving as quickly and quietly as I can safely manage, I try to remain invisible
to any searching teacher and head for the famous window tomb. Everybody
knows about the window tomb! It is the subject of many school yard
debates, with boys talking about what you are supposed to be able to see,
what they have actually seen and a lot about what they think they've seen.
As I approach I can see kids arriving and leaving and a whispering knot
gathered around the famous shrine. Boys are taking turns climbing
up and kneeling on hands and knees, while peering intently into the small
crystal window embedded in the thick ornate slab. Ernie is already
there and I move up beside him.
“See anything” I whisper?
“Naw
. . . suns not in the right place” he whispers back.
“You gonna look”?
I nod and move into place
in line. I have to look, it’s a Decoration Day tradition.
The group is thinning out fast, as everybody is heading back to the road.
When my turn comes, with head held close, I try to see into the thick glass
rectangle. It appears as if someone has tried to clean it, maybe
with a bit of spit and a handkerchief, but as always there's really nothing
to see. It is sort of like trying to see through a scarred and cloudy
marble into a dark closet. After having made several visits to this
strange place, I am beginning to wonder if the stories are true at all.
But
why else would the little window be there? Next year I might bring
a mirror and see if I can direct a shaft of sunlight down inside.
I'm afraid of being really late if I linger any longer, so I use top speed
for as long as I dare getting back to the group.
I slip into place hoping
I don't appear too winded, just as a solo trumpeter steps out to take his
place facing the monuments. As the flag is displayed, he raises his
horn and plays taps for the silent rows. This is pretty stirring
stuff, for a young boy who has spent as much time learning about history
as I have. My mind is still filled with images of fighter pilots,
Green Mountain Boys and civil war heroes, long after we move quietly back
out of the old graveyard.
In exact reverse of the
entrance, our little group moves well away from the gate, before the band
strikes up again. The return trip is up the long hill we came down
and I am really hot and thirsty by the time we pass the General Store.
What
I wouldn't give to go inside for a cold Nu-Grape soft drink.
We soon make the two turns back to the school and our return is to a much
larger audience of family and friends. We are dismissed with directions
to “use the bathroom . . . get
a drink . . . comb your
hair and go to your seats in the auditorium
. . . QUICKLY”.
Kids restrained too long,
explode in the familiar surroundings of the Town Hall basement! The
excitement of the march coupled with the fact that there is only about
one more hour of school, makes us all loud and animated. Teachers
try frantically to gain control and hurry us to our seats.
For a small Vermont town,
there is a sizable crowd packed into the old Town Meeting Hall and I'm
not able to find Verna before reaching my seat. The program is introduced
and proceeds quickly to the point where my class is to take the stage.
I realize for the first time, that the Gettysburg Address hasn't even crossed
my mind since lunch. Feeling a bit uneasy, I find myself on stage
facing the big audience.
More or less all together
we begin. “Fourscore and seven years ago
. . . ”
My eyes sweep over the
rows of seated people. Let's see, there's Mom
. . . and Ernie's group
. . . where's Verna’s class
. . . there she is. She looks right at me, but
when our eyes meet she covers her mouth with her hand and blushing turns
toward a giggling girl friend. I guess she's told her friend about
me. She is beautiful, such a big girl to be a year younger than me.
She would be perfect to play Maid Marion and present our archery tournament
award! Why do we have to live so far from everybody? It will
never be possible to play with her.
“
. . . and that government of the people,
by the people, for the people shall not perish from the earth”. |
That was it!
It’s over! I don't even remember doing it! I daydreamed through
the whole thing! Did I do ok? It doesn't matter
. . . Mom was right, I have survived it and I don't care
how I did.
Finally the program is
finished and the master of ceremonies dismisses us. Amidst
cheers and shouts of “have a good summer” and “see you next year”
we pile into our old model A Ford and head for home. As Mom drives
away, I realize that I am still clutching my undelivered note to Verna
and emotions that I can't yet identify flood over me. Ernie and I
have no way of knowing that the talk about moving to Texas will become
reality, or that these are to be our last days in New Haven and Beldens.
The
End
Written
and submitted by Gene Warner,
May 2001
"I am only
an amateur writer, but this is a totally true recollection of Beeman Academy's
Decoration Day parade, as it was in New Haven Vermont in the early 1950's."
- Gene Warner |
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